As thoughts have come and gone throughout the days, I have often been carried back to a time in my life when a close friend, whom I greatly admired, had so disappointed and confused me that I became disillusioned with friendship and established norms. It even shook my confidence as a mother and a wife. And during that time, many years ago, as my mind tried to cope with the pain of cruel words that stung my heart, my self-esteem was damaged. This is a burden that I carried with me for many years, constantly reliving the experience. I would go over and over that time, replaying each conversation and every barbed word that was colored with manipulation, and wonder if the person really knew what they did to me or if they were sorry at all. In Brandon Heath’s song, “I’m Not Who I Was”, he sings of a past relationship colored with pain, and the heart changes that come through forgiveness. When I first heard this song I searched my heart and quickly saw that I was holding onto a pain that I needed to let go and leave at the feet of Jesus. I understood that by constantly reliving those memories and allowing the bitter root of an unforgiving heart to grab hold of me, I was only hurting myself more. I was enabling myself to be kept under the stronghold of the person whose actions had hurt me years ago.